I was walking home last night doing something new...worrying about my life
This year has been filled with change, loss and more change...
I guess it's something that all people over 30 go through, but I've gotten really good at analyzing every bad decision I've ever made since I was 16, and then using said material as evidence of me being a dumbass
Not sure if you can relate, but I'll tell ya, it don't feel good
This year has been filled with change, loss and more change...
I guess it's something that all people over 30 go through, but I've gotten really good at analyzing every bad decision I've ever made since I was 16, and then using said material as evidence of me being a dumbass
Not sure if you can relate, but I'll tell ya, it don't feel good
I know, I know...we all make mistakes, no one's perfect, blah, blah, blah...
I wrote the book on looking on the bright side
Last night, I was just going to town on myself, angry that I've not accomplished more, been to more places, met more people, let go of old ideas more, you get the drill
And for sure, I know I'm not the only one
Most of the people in my circle and around me are facing the same shit
They're looking at themselves in the mirror and saying, "What the fuck happened?"
Well, life happened
I'm not being a pessimist...I understand the value of the power of positive thinking and that jazz
I'm talking about reality, people
Sometimes you look back and say, "Man, it's been fucking tough!"
Now, if you don't relate to this, then you can stop reading right now
But, if you can identify with some real hard lessons being learned from an early age, then welcome to the club
The club of hard knocks and doing whatever it takes to keep the mustard seed of hope alive
When I was a little kid, I grew up real quick, maybe too quick
And it seems like since then it's been one fucking thing after another
The details don't matter
It's just right as I was catching my breath, another thing came along that taught me
about dancing with blind faith
To be honest, I'm fucking exhausted
I know the value of The Law of Attraction, meditation, therapy and the like
I thoroughly understand that I'm responsible for my attitude and that in turn creates my life
I get it...
But I'm not in a philosophical mood today, I'm just plain tired
I'm a Taurus, and they say that bulls have real small comfort zones
I've learned how to harness my will power and use it as a battering ram to whatever wall I choose
It's made me a hell of a salesman, not listening to the word NO and never giving up until they've signed
the dotted line or left the premises
I ain't afraid to go straight into any challenge, using sheer brute force to break through to the other side
I've helped a boatload of people overcome obstacles by teaching them the magic of resilience
and determination
Deep sigh...I surrender
Some say, "Well, you're a spiritual being and you chose this life to learn lessons..."
I get it...
But today, I just don't want to hear that fucking bullshit
There's only so much one man can take
I'm tired of pitching myself, telling potential clients how valuable me and my projects are
That big break seems to elude me for now, and frankly, I don't feel like chasing it around the tree today
They say that sometimes instead of grabbing at a butterfly, you just need to sit still and let it land on you
I'm not real good at that
My friends have intuitively given me a message, "Maybe it's time to take a break..."
How the fuck does one do that?
I've got people to call, emails to send, marketing and promoting to do...I've gotta figure this shit out
I guess it can wait...Daddy needs some down time
Maybe I'll see The Social Network...it's been out for weeks
So there I was, walking home last night, feeling hopeless and overwhelmed
I stopped on the corner by St. Mary's Star of the Sea Church and looked up to a bright star in the sky
I said a little prayer...nothing major...just asked for some help
And as the words were being said, I saw a shooting star grace the sky
Who knows...maybe a little wink from the Universe
So today this bull is taking a rest in the shade
Time to turn off the inner committee, listen to the wind and take a nap
Sometimes it's good to do nothing
Most of the people in my circle and around me are facing the same shit
They're looking at themselves in the mirror and saying, "What the fuck happened?"
Well, life happened
I'm not being a pessimist...I understand the value of the power of positive thinking and that jazz
I'm talking about reality, people
Sometimes you look back and say, "Man, it's been fucking tough!"
Now, if you don't relate to this, then you can stop reading right now
But, if you can identify with some real hard lessons being learned from an early age, then welcome to the club
The club of hard knocks and doing whatever it takes to keep the mustard seed of hope alive
When I was a little kid, I grew up real quick, maybe too quick
And it seems like since then it's been one fucking thing after another
The details don't matter
It's just right as I was catching my breath, another thing came along that taught me
about dancing with blind faith
To be honest, I'm fucking exhausted
I know the value of The Law of Attraction, meditation, therapy and the like
I thoroughly understand that I'm responsible for my attitude and that in turn creates my life
I get it...
But I'm not in a philosophical mood today, I'm just plain tired
I'm a Taurus, and they say that bulls have real small comfort zones
I've learned how to harness my will power and use it as a battering ram to whatever wall I choose
It's made me a hell of a salesman, not listening to the word NO and never giving up until they've signed
the dotted line or left the premises
I ain't afraid to go straight into any challenge, using sheer brute force to break through to the other side
I've helped a boatload of people overcome obstacles by teaching them the magic of resilience
and determination
Deep sigh...I surrender
Some say, "Well, you're a spiritual being and you chose this life to learn lessons..."
I get it...
But today, I just don't want to hear that fucking bullshit
There's only so much one man can take
I'm tired of pitching myself, telling potential clients how valuable me and my projects are
That big break seems to elude me for now, and frankly, I don't feel like chasing it around the tree today
They say that sometimes instead of grabbing at a butterfly, you just need to sit still and let it land on you
I'm not real good at that
My friends have intuitively given me a message, "Maybe it's time to take a break..."
How the fuck does one do that?
I've got people to call, emails to send, marketing and promoting to do...I've gotta figure this shit out
I guess it can wait...Daddy needs some down time
Maybe I'll see The Social Network...it's been out for weeks
So there I was, walking home last night, feeling hopeless and overwhelmed
I stopped on the corner by St. Mary's Star of the Sea Church and looked up to a bright star in the sky
I said a little prayer...nothing major...just asked for some help
And as the words were being said, I saw a shooting star grace the sky
Who knows...maybe a little wink from the Universe
So today this bull is taking a rest in the shade
Time to turn off the inner committee, listen to the wind and take a nap
Sometimes it's good to do nothing
